I Have Feelings for someone but I Feel I have Offended them what do I do?

Hi folks , hows it going , so i figured i could ask you some advice regarding relationships etc as i have somewhat of a dilemma . Basically im not a very social person and hence haven't had much luck in the dating world , i had 2 girlfriends in the past but that didn't really turn out so well as it boiled down to indifference's in our interests . I am currently 20 and will be turning 21 soon and I have to say , the age of 20 has been very obscure and emotionally perplexing . Throughout high school and while i was in the two relationships mentioned above , i never really gave a serious thought about the idea of love, being infatuated , maturing through a relationship etc . I too for the longest time identified myself as being straight but i am now really doubting myself on a lot of things . (ie i might be hanging in between being heterosexual and bisexual ) but i don't know lol. So basically what i wanted to ask u is some advice on how to deal with someone i like.





So , I pretty much gave up hope of finding someone "special" until recently in one of my classes i met this guy who is totally is awesome , we both sort of have similar tastes in video games, converse about intelligent topics , and like to joke around with each other etc . I actually think i may have a huge crush on him too . In fact i think he is my first crush ever ie , i constantly think about him but the thing is i don't intend to tell him or take my feelings anywhere , i just want to be friends with him because I'm not ready to be in a relationship with any girl/guy at the moment. I know he is into girls and he thinks i am too ,and its true i am but right now my focus is on him lol , so we both like to joke around about going out with a hot girl in our class . We Went out for coffee and we got to talking , he tells me he too had a hard time meeting people when he moved to the city after high school and his one attempt at making a friend failed as that person turned out to be a weirdo who would constantly stare at him and was always on MSN asking him to do his assignments lol . I recently mustered the courage to ask him his msn and i practically converse with him everyday but I'm perplexed about a couple of things



1. Do u think it鈥檚 its weird that i am online every day and that i try to talk to him ? (my rebuttal to that is , i am online almost every day doing assignments, listening to music or whatnot so as a friend , i drop in to say hi and besides he's online too , which is weird judging by the fact that he says he only has 4 contacts )



2. He recently asked me if he was ugly because he hasn't been able to get any girls attention ( why do hot people always think they are ugly its mind boggling 0_o ). I said he wasn't and that he shouldn't worry about it but I don鈥檛 know if he felt weirded out by my comment.



3. I try to spend as much time as possible with hI'm because he says he might be moving back and (pushing my infatuations for one second aside ), as a friend i don't want to lose any special bond i have with him so i try to hang out with hi m . Does any one think this is weird ? Also he knows a ton of people at school but he (A.) doesn't hangout with any one of them and (B.) He spends most of his time at home which is strange ! if u know a ton of people ,why not hang out with them ?



4. Lastly , i recently noticed he was online but not to sound so anxious and awkward , I didn't say hi to him , finally hours later when i did , he took his own time to answer and seemed kinda moody, I casually mentioned something about a test and he says " **** that" and signs out . I firstly felt hurt because I really didn't do anything to offend him , at least that's what i think , but then sort of realized maybe he has some personal issues he is dealing with but what i don't get is the fact that i have had self esteem issues throughout my life and i have "never" reacted that way to another person before and hence i don't know how to take his response .



In conclusion here is my main question , and i rly apologize if i was rather lengthy in my explanation lol :



How do i deal with my situation with the dude ? should i not be so eager over msn/when i hang out with him? or should I also adopt the "**** it , I'm too good for this " mentality and move on ? Your help would be a greatly appreciatedI Have Feelings for someone but I Feel I have Offended them what do I do?
Ahhh this is too long... I read some of it, I think you should confront him.